i've get my smile back!!!!

salam...
lama botul xberblog ni...
bz skang ni..assignmnt,test..lps ni final plak..25hb!!
emm...bnyk bnda y brlaku lam msa aku xberblog ni..tp,
aku nk crite y terbaru ni...heee
ni kiranya luahan aty aku y suci bersih lg murni ni..hahaha
ptg td aku try kol someone,someone y nk kata special tu,ada laa sikit
aku kol,tp tutup..then tba2 dia msg aku
and ask me to leave any msg n sorry i cannot be like we r through b4..plis u/stand me..
dia xphm ke, aku rndu dia,mereka??
sis,theres notim important..i juz call u bcoz wanna know bout adik & kakak
do they remember me as i miss them much??
mebi it unnecessary 2 u..i've try & do understand u,as like u want
im juz looking some forgiveness from u
i'm not free...i was stuck in ur heart..
i hope dats no revenge in ur heart..
if it do so, i'll never join my life freely...
if all those things happen juz bcoz of "ketidaksengajaan" i know bout dat
i'm not the one dat u should blame,it's not my fault!!
truly, i'm so proud when i called u sis once b4
and it'll never ends till die..
u & ur family are part in my life..
everyday,evry second,i ask from GOD 2 give me back wat i have loss b4
and now...i know, ALLAH alwez beside me..and hear my pray..
ALLAH never leave me alone, so either u..
i know, we can't be like b4...and i do not ask to do dat
but..plis,whatever happen between us,dont make ur kids hate me
it more hurting me if u do so...they r juz like my miracle
they make me smile and learn me how to appreciate wat i have now
its very beatiful moment when i was there to hold their hands
and kiss them..
and juz now, u send me unexpectable msg...
u said"...we r sister & its remain so..hopefully there's notim
'stuck' in our heart & we can continue our life happly & freely..
my kids + me still rmmber u as u do..."
when i read dat kind of msg, my tears come along
dats wat i wait so long...u reply my msg..a +ve msg
tq so much!!!u give me a hope..a new hope!!
i can through my life without any doubt anymore
u've let me go freely..tq!!
i can breath again....thanxs
its worth for fighting this...and 2nite, i'll sleep very well
mebi u know,dats not my fault..
truly, u make me smile again
u give me back my smile..i hope my smile never fade away anymore
tq..tq so much!!